Thursday, May 27, 2010

Leave a mark

Or what's left of it.

Last Tuesday, I decided to bring some of the stickers I have been keeping since sixth grade (roughly ten years ago) to the center where I work for the kids to use. One of the students celebrated his birthday that day and his peers from the social thinking group I help handle made a birthday card for the him. The children decorated their cards with lots of the stickers I brought with me. What fun!

It's a small step in learning to let go of many things that I hold on to. You see, I have this bad habit of keeping things I like and not using them because I am 'saving them for something special'. I say it's a bad habit because every day is a special day - another chance to live life and feel the love of God. As the saying goes, "Today is a gift that is why it is called the present." So, what am I waiting for, right? :)

Besides, I have this new sticker fever.

I discovered wall stickers at a store called Japan Home for only 200Php. There were different designs which are all equally beautiful but I immediately fell in love with the flowers the moment I laid eyes on it!

And so I began the slow process of putting my little pieces of joy together...

...until they started to take shape and grow colors...

... and blossom in to a bundle of hope and happiness sending sunshine to my room all the time. :)

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Eat and be merry

Pasta and yogurt night.

My first attempt to cook pasta using rice cooker and the small electric portable stove that we have in our small yet comfy city house while trying to watch TV to stop myself from thinking too much for a moment. Ah, success is scrumptious!

Life is good when there's great food. :)

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Rural life

I am very much invigorated whenever I am surrounded by Mother Nature. I feel more alive.

Living in the city filled with man-made everything from buildings to highways, from plastic to styrofoam can be very draining. At some point while I am staying in the metropolitan area, I feel slowly becoming less of a human and more of a machine. There's nothing more that I look forward to than going home to my hometown in the southern provincial area of Luzon after weeks or months of working in the big city.

Ahhh, and so I continue to dream of living very, very near the beach someday... or lake, or river - any body of water for that matter. Who wouldn't love waking up to clear blue skies, calming wave sounds, and cool wind breezes?

Sunday, May 9, 2010


I feel that every person is born incomplete. I believe that there's a hole in every person's life that starts as a pinpoint which in time transforms into a deep, dark cavity of nothingness that can eventually eat a person's whole being.

Many people in today's society do not realize that they possess this certain gap within themselves. Often, these people go through life without really living. Most of them simply 'get by' or 'exist'. In spite of the seemingly normal lives these people have, they do not realize that they are already leading lives of quiet desperation - a silent attempt to end the asking of 'Why?'.

I was one of those people once. Thankfully, I have discovered the presence of this hole in my life many years ago and through God's grace, my spirit has opened up to the Lord - the only One who can fill the gap in me and make me whole. I am made complete in and by His love.

This past week, however, I have made an equally important discovery.

As I continue to live in this world, my human-ness tries many ways to go back to its old, sinful nature: rebellious, disobedient, and unsatisfied. Sometimes, I just can't help but ponder angrily on the fact that I can't stop thinking about the elusive 'Why?s', especially when my answers fall short. Well, recently, I have come to realize that although the hole has been filled, it keeps on expanding still and the only way to stop it from taking over me is allowing more of God to fill every part of me until I totally lose my life to Him before darkness overcomes me first. Never in my life has Mark 8:35 been clearer to me: "For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake and the gospel’s will save it."

Life is short and it can only be lived once. Make sure you chose The Way, the right way.

P.S. Happy Mother's Day, Mama, and to all the wonderful moms out there. :)


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